June 2013
“When a thing disturbs the peace of your heart, give it up.”
— Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) (via perfectedpeace)
0025
Lift the weight
off my shoulders
that has dragged
me down further
into the depths
of the waters
of inescapable depression
and undying insecurity
I just want
to surface from
this mundane moroseness
and float up
into the sky
into the warmth
on top of
the entire world
-AA
0127
Maybe if I were prettier
or a little bit thinner
with longer legs
and a smaller nose
maybe I
Maybe if I weren’t so shy
or so busy
or messy
or irresponsible
maybe I
Maybe if I could sing
and if I could dance
or draw and paint
and write
maybe I
Maybe if I were less fickle
and picky and difficult
or blunt and offensive
maybe I
Maybe there may be too many maybes
to maybe tell me what may be
maybe
—AA
Have you read the Great Gatsby?
Of course I have
May 2013
0143
Hiatus: Too busy with everything to give a shit about interweb social life.
Real life (as a student) involves no sleep, assignments, tests and plenty of bullshit to tolerate.
Goodnight.
0237
you don’t love me, you love the idea of being with me.
you don’t love me, you love the version of me inside your head.
AA
0336
Have you ever been forced to make a quick decision despite the noise inside your head telling you that all your choices aren’t going to be any easy? Have you ever felt something so right was so wrong and then it scared you shitless because you realise you don’t really know what you’re doing? Have you ever tried to cling on something so dear, you end up letting it slip past your fingers? Have you ever tried so hard, only to realise that all you did hadn’t been enough and you’re barely out of the door?
I have.
im interested in joining the CPDG. how do i enrol? i heard you have to be 18 to join right ?
You can still train with us if you want, just drop us a message on our Facebook page and come by our trainings! It’s that easy haha
when you end some of your post with AA, does it mean it's written by you or is it someone else with the same initials lol
AA is Azimah Azmi so yes it’s by me, unless otherwise stated.
0400
I wish I could forget
the warmness of your body
pressed up against me
but I lost my mind
when you crushed my chest
and stole my heart
It’s pretty sad
that it happens all the time
the person who grows inside you
ends up ripping you apart
AA
Can you share a bit about your self harm story? How to cover them etc? Thank you :)
I don’t really want to go too deep into that, but I used to carve really horrible things into my flesh.. And I still have some scars because I didnt stick to one place and I did it in places that I cover with clothes. I regret ever doing all of that but that’s okay, I lived through that phase and that’s all that matters. Well I’ve been using cocoa butter lotion for a long time now and it helps even the skin tone out.
April 2013
what do you think of boys/girls who self harm?
Ah, I’ve been there.
Well to tell you the truth, they just want someone to talk to, to love and be loved by, to feel appreciated, to not be judged, to be heard and understood…
Sometimes some people heal slower than others, and that’s perfectly fine. Sometimes some people let the voices in their head get to them and that’s okay.
But one day they are going to have to wake up and realise that it’s not going to take them anywhere. When you stay stagnant at trying to kill the pain inside, you’re actually killing the love inside of you too. You need the love inside to grow, even if it sounds immensely cliche.
