bipolar.

Off my chest

#2

Before the year ends, I just want to say I’m sorry.

I’m sorry I couldn’t be patient enough to give you a chance. I’m sorry I let my ego shut you out. I’m sorry I let you take the bait and then shot you down. I’m sorry I never wanted anything more from you, but I made you think otherwise. I’m sorry I made you believe in me. I’m sorry I let you down.

For every heart I’ve broken this year, I’m sorry.

I guess I deserve the abandonment, I’ve only hurt you by feeding off your efforts in trying to make me bring down the walls around me.

I admit I had been difficult in the early parts of the year, extremely difficult. Well I had to protect myself, all that happened in 2010 was just too painful… but you wouldn’t have known that, would you?

By some miracle God led me to Hfz and I am truly thankful. However I wouldn’t have learnt the lessons I’ve learnt if it wasn’t for you.

All I wanna say is.. I’m still here, as a friend, or acquaintance, whatever. I haven’t forgotten you, and I hope you feel the same.